Author: 285KKS

  • Never Gets Old
    2–3 minutes

    Never Gets Old

    I took a seat at the counter, leaning forward, resting my arms on the cool surface. The cold sensation clawing its way through my sleeves.

    The cafe had a dark interior, mostly black. There were several lights in the ceiling, casting an even glow along the entire room. Multi-coloured lights bled in through closed curtains, as if filtered through ever shifting stained glass. Soft music hummed from somewhere, varying from 60’s tunes, to century old rhythms lost to time and even many that barely sounded like music at all.

    “Uh, give me the signature blend, I suppose” I said to the barista opposite me. An old man, tall, wrinkled, grey hair slicked back, standing straighter than ruler.

    “Of course” he had a very peculiar accent, he picked it up from years of service. There was a soft thud behind me; I peered over my shoulder, a customer had taken their seat. They were leaning back against a near mint condition sofa. One arm, if you could call it that, it was more a mass of tentacles, set on the table, dripping slick onto the marble. Their face was smooth and glistening, nose flattened and head bare. They were staring out the window, a flurry of lights passing by, swirling and blending together like some sort of drug-induced fever dream.

    “Here you are” the man said, pushing a cup of coffee across the counter, “One signature blend”

    “Thank you” I said, bringing the steaming cup to my mouth and taking a sip, feeling the warm bitterness travel through my body. A perfect cup, always was; “Mmm, how do you do it?”

    “Pour over” answered the man, a grin tugging at his lips. I scoffed, he’d never spill his secrets, not even his own name. I’ve been trying for a millennium to get it out of him.

    I took a deep breath, looking around this cafe, old beyond imagination yet still as pristine as ever. “Never gets old, huh?”, I heaved a heavy sigh.

    The soft music was replaced with a small dinging sound. Ah, the next stop. Suddenly, the mosaic blur of colours was replaced with a bustling street alley. Neon lights plastered on the sides of buildings, some jut out on little posts. Steaming and sizzling as the rain drops touched it. Large figures wandered around, but the windows had been fogged up and I couldn’t make anything out.

    The door opened, the little bell jingling overhead as a few faces walked into the cafe, I mean that literally. Two floating heads, hovering by whatever law of physics governed them. They took their seat at another booth at the far end of the cafe. There was a flurry of blue light, from within emerged a waitress, right beside the heads who just took their place.

    The old man smiled, “never gets old”

  • A Blissful Dance
    1–2 minutes

    A Blissful Dance

    She closed her eyes and twirled, her deep ebony hair swinging with her enchanting gyration. Dress fanning out, a plain white canvas upon which the stained glass cast a myriad of colours onto. Her feet moved in and out; crossing in, extending out, hopping softly, arms raised then down then extended straight all in one fluid motion.

    She danced to an audience, the centre of a wide circle of people dressed in luxurious silks. Suits and vests, dresses that needed servants to carry the ends. They all gawked at her; why wouldn’t they? She was perfect. She smiled wide, chest swelling with pride.

    She pranced along the ballroom, the music loud in her head. The symphony of the violin leapfrogging over the piano’s melody in a battle where her ears were the reward. She began humming the tune softly to herself, moving her body in accordance under the rainbow spotlight–

    Thud.

    Static.

    Bang.

    She opened her eyes. She was on all fours. She’d fallen?

    A caved in radio sprawled out before her; a cluttered room surrounding her. She wore an oversized hoodie, splattered with innumerable stains of unknown origin. Books and pencils, papers and clothes, eyeliner and lipstick all littered throughout the room. A cacophony of colours drowned out by a dull brown light piercing through the closed curtains into her bedroom.

    She pushed off the ground, wincing as her joints ached. She began humming a tune to herself. She closed her eyes, they stung with salty tears, and she twirled on aching legs. Her dull black hair swinging with her clumsy gyration.

  • And then there were none
    2–3 minutes

    And then there were none

    Quiet, you could say. Sombre felt more apt. The aroma of freshly ground coffee wafted through the air, ensnaring me in its scent. A deep breath; the bitter fragrance coated my lungs. A long exhale; warm breath clouding the glass looking onto the streets.

    I was huddled in the corner of the cafe. Alone, slouched over my coffee, naked hands wrapped around the curvature of the pine-green mug, like half-frozen travellers cramped around a campfire and desperate for warmth. Oh, how I loathed snow. Though, the window’s passer-bys didn’t seem to mind.

    They always had somewhere to go and always in a rush to get there, not so much as stopping to breathe for a moment and take in the smell of shit and sewage, bask in the heat of the buses exhaust or perhaps shoot a degrading glare at a homeless man.

    The jingle of the door signalled a new traveller in my midst. They waltzed in, dragging in snow with their boots. Another deep breath; the slimy odour of burning rubber clawed into my throat. Coughing; met with backwards glances for a fleeting second, and all then resumed.

    The newcomer ordered their beverage, an iced latte? Odd, to say the least. But who was I to judge? They sat near me, glancing over their shoulder, eyes studying me. Up and down and then down and up. A slight furrowing of their nose; they got up, trudged over to another seat and plopped themselves down, never looking back.

    A sigh, my coffee had gotten cold. The half-frozen travellers huddled tighter for warmth against dwindling embers, to no avail. A deeper sigh, the coffee sloshed down my throat; unsatisfying. Mud-brown gloves pulled over my fingers, salvation for those decrepit wanderers.

    “Thank you” muttered I. A jingle of the door, boots buried in snow, dragged across onto the streets. I moved forward, passing the window I had just been looking out of. A deep sigh; eruption of mist clouding my eyes. Fumes drew water from them, I walked forwards. A homeless man wrapped tight in a blanket, I waked along. Snow scattered onto the streets, and I walked onwards.

  • Do you wanna know how I got these scars?
    5–8 minutes

    Do you wanna know how I got these scars?

    The day started as it ordinarily would have around 9 years ago. I was up at 6 in the morning, the sunlight poured through my curtains on a sunny day at our quaint suburban home in Durban, South Africa. My sister, too deathly afraid to sleep by herself, was snoring away beside me, blissfully unaware of what her little sibling had planned that day.

    I sat up on the bed, my feet not reaching the carpeted floor of my bedroom and my mouth feeling unpleasant, somewhat dry and definitely not smelling too great, as mornings tended to do.

    I hopped off the bed, feet snuggling into the individual threads of the rug under my feet. I walked out to the corridor, trying to shirk brushing my teeth for as long as possible– parents didn’t like that very much.

    My eternally bare feet were now on the hardwood floor of the corridor leading to our living room, dining room and kitchen. My dad was already up, sitting on the counter, drinking some alien, bitter beverage that I’d never tried on account of my unwavering sweet tooth that fought any other flavours. He was reading a book, what book it was, I don’t particularly recall, but it’s safe to assume he was reading something; he’s quite the avid reader.

    I sat beside him, climbing the legs of the tall stool that skirted the black marble counter as if they were trees, and eventually, through gruelling physical strain, I placed my bum onto the cool flat wood. My father and I were always up early; he, more often than not, before the sun, and I followed soon after. It offered some quietude and, that was always welcome, I’ve never been one for loud environments, and my mother and sister weren’t very complementary to that idea.

    My father offered me breakfast, pancakes; if it was sweet, it was going to be in my mouth despite anyone’s best efforts; you can’t fight a sweet tooth, you just can’t. The morning passed as it usually did, turning on the television and watching whatever came up. It tended to be Disney XD, maybe even a morning Nickelodeon binge; it didn’t matter really, I had my pancakes, I was satisfied.

    **********

    The sun was high in the sky, my mother was off to work, and my father and sister minded their own business inside the house. I, and two neighbouring kids, both brothers and two or three years older than me at the time, stood in front of their house, scooters in hand, eyeing the asphalt hill that lined our street, an idea had been stirring in the back of our minds for the past few days, and today, it was time to execute the single most incredible stunt ever done by mankind.

    We trudged up the steep asphalt, scooters held tight in our hands. We gained altitude never reached by man on foot with each step, and when we reached the precipice, it was time.

    We placed the scooters before us, ready to shred through the space-time continuum with the speeds that we’d reach. Our heartbeats were steady. Fear? I didn’t know her; all I knew is that this hill needed to be tamed, and I’d be the one to do it alongside these two boys, no, warriors.

    When the imaginary gun fired, we were off, leaning forward for maximum aerodynamic efficiency; all three of us were speed incarnate. The wind blew through my short hair, and our scooters were steady. Nothing could stop us now. The only sounds were that of the wheels grinding against the hardened tar and the wind in our ears; we were gods, unstoppable forces of nature. We were flames eating the road alive as we blazed through the obstacle, and the wind only served to make us burn brighter.

    But how does that old adage go? Fight fire with fire? That’s the one, it would take only similar flames of equal power to dethrone me, and tragically, there were two on my flank.

    Our scooters converged, not willingly, but the universe couldn’t allow something of such pure awesomeness to thrive for long. My wheel collided with the one on the scooter beside mine. A split second was all it took to turn my blazing ball of glory into a failure rolling down an asphalt hill. I stumbled forward, my whole body uncontrolled in its descent. I don’t recall what happened to the others, but I imagine they shared mine, one of being torn from the peak of humanity and thrown into the pits of disappointment.

    I pushed off the ground, my palms scraping against the tar. My body wasn’t in pain. I was alive and ready for more. I looked up at the two boys in front of me, laughing, willing to try it again, ready to reclaim my honour. But their expressions weren’t that of renewed vigour like mine, their eyes were wide, and their mouths were agape.

    One of them pointed, “your chin”, he said, his voice shaking.

    “What?” I asked before feeling an unwelcome warmth on my hands: blood. And lots of it.

    My hands were practically painted crimson, and the ground was stained with a similar red. The smile on my face vanished, the world around me faded as I screamed, tears streaming down my face, sprinting to my house, to my father, leaving a trail of blood in my wake.

    I burst through the door, blood dripping on the floor as I made my way to my parents’ room; my dad was shaving when I shoved the door open, revealing the gaping wound on my chin. My dad’s expression was identical to the kids, just much more panicked. He took swift action, cleaning the shaving cream off his face and running out with lopsided facial hair.

    He held a tissue to my chin and phoned my mother, telling her the gist of what had happened and then grabbed my sister, telling her to keep the tissue to my chin while he drove to my mother’s office, picking her up before we went to the emergency room.

    The car ride was tense, my father kept peeking over his shoulder to make sure we were okay, and my sister simply held the tissue to my chin, completely stoic, I might add. My chin quaked, my lips always did quiver whenever I cried, and my hands were tightly holding the car seats for deal life.

    I don’t think my sister understood what was happening back then. If this happened now (and it’s embarrassingly liable to happen now), she would never have had the stomach to hold the tissue there as it slowly dyed red, the act of changing tissues is beyond her now, and to be fair, I’d prefer her not to do it. She was likely to hurt me more, accidentally, but still not an attractive option.

    Eventually, I was seated in a hospital chair. I don’t particularly remember what was happening. My mother sat beside me, looking me in my eyes and smiled as I felt string move around inside my chin along with spaced pricks as needles went in and out of my skin. Stitches, it was a new experience, and fortunately not one I’ve had to go through again– not yet anyway.

    For the next few weeks, I had little bits of thread sticking out of my chin, a premature beard as it were, and countless jokes were made at its expense, most of which involved me “looking older now” and the like.

    This may sound somewhat morbid, but I hope we all bolster scars from stupid things we did when we were younger. Life isn’t fun without a memento of stupidity forever marking your body– hence, why I want to get a tattoo someday.

  • Uncertainty
    4–6 minutes

    Uncertainty

    The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown.

    H. P. Lovecraft

    As a high school student, I’ve gotten my fair share of essays and questions dealing with the “future” and what I expect from it, where I hope to be and whatnot. Frankly, as the title probably gives away, I find the future to be riddled with uncertainty and the unforeseeable, for many that may invite woes aplenty, but personally, it is rather exhilarating, it’s why we like a good book after all, “what happens next?”

    I’ve never been one for plans, routines or schedules. It feels restricting at times, suffocating even. I’ve always been an advocate of impromptu and spontaneous decisions because, in my humble opinion, you don’t really know what you want until the very moment the choice is presented, the split second you have to weigh that decision; at that moment, the one which your instinct points to, more often than not, is the right decision for you and, who are you living for if not yourself?

    I’d decided my career path long before I had been faced with the choices to choose, and even then, I’d wavered and dabbled in other interests and possibilities: a game developer, a filmmaker, an engineer and many others, I’ve a knack to the lean towards the creative. I’ve allowed myself to explore who I wish to be freely, and if you’re reading this, you may know I adore writing; maybe I’m not extraordinary in comparison to the greats, perhaps I’ll never get there, but the joy in doing something is all the drive I need to do it, being the best, be it in a sport, a skill, a talent, or whatever, it’s somewhat overrated.

    The path the world expects a budding adult to walk is one focused on their career, focused on providing for themselves, while it is essential to survive in the world man has created, aside from comfort and material gain, what does one really get from devoting their lives to this cause? I don’t need, nor do I really want, to walk a path in life that’s littered with roses and gilded with pure gold. How much happiness can one extract from such ephemeral sources of pleasure, from these material possessions? The answer is right in front of our faces. We’ve all heard it hundreds of thousands, if not millions of times, money can’t buy happiness; therefore, the answer to this question is simple, nothing.

    The only place where humanity can derive a sense of inner peace and happiness is within oneself; to walk the path that one believes is the best for themselves, it may be wrong in the end, but at least they dared to take that step forward, for themselves and none other. I believe that even if I make every wrong decision at every crossroad, I’ll still be satisfied knowing I walked my own path, one I paved by myself.

    All I say sounds appealing, at least it does to me, but from the moment we are born, we are chained down to the ground by society’s shackles. It may sound cliche of me to say, but the truth often tends to be overstated. We are bogged down by traditional, cultural and familial standards and expectations. When the path you want to set yourself on doesn’t align with a guardian, it’s hard to break out of those shackles. I don’t envy those who had to tear themselves away from their families to be themselves, to be happy, but I admire the dedication and respect they have for themselves to be able to do so, and I hope if that day ever arrives for me, I find the courage to do so as well but only time will tell, just, and nothing but, the future holds the answers.

    The quote I started this post with is one that I’ve used a few times in my time writing on this blog; I feel it captures humanity in so many regards that it’s not possible to ignore it and still have it feel appropriate to talk about whatever it is I decide to talk about. The future, in all senses, is the unknown, and many fear it, try to do the best they can to remain in the state they are in. I pity those people. To dwell in a stagnant world with no ambition is a tragedy, one that many people live, one that is not so easy to rid oneself of, not at all. I wish I could offer the solution, but in this case, the answer isn’t quite so simple. Freeing oneself from the mental restraints one has tied oneself with is a personal and perilous journey, a path one has to walk lest they be consumed by the darkness within themselves; easier said than done, far easier.

    The future brings with it uncertainty; whether we choose to fear it in every fibre of our being and fight its inevitable consumption of the present, or we choose to embrace the change that it brings, diving headfirst into the unknown to experience that which holds new experiences, is a dilemma entirely up to us, to the individual person. I know not what the people in my life will choose, but the former is a prison, and the latter proposes freedom; now, as you have already inferred, for me, the choice is as clear as night and day.

  • War
    1–2 minutes

    War

    The fires of war rage,
    leaving behind ashes of what once was.
    Dwindling embers of a lost age;
    sacrifices for a redundant cause.

    Lives lost in millions;
    only a shattered existence remains.
    Death in the crossfire, civilians.
    Blood spilled from countless veins.

    Land or power,
    all is arbitrary.
    In the heat of war,
    a life is momentary.

    Yet the fires of war rage on.
    And so it will, infernally
    until all is gone;
    eaten by flames enterally.

  • A Subjective Reality
    3–4 minutes

    A Subjective Reality

    “All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream.”
    ― Edgar Allen Poe, A Dream within a Dream

    The above quote is a line that, more or less, explicitly states what it’s trying to say: a commentary of humans’ subjective perception.

    What is a subjective reality?

    How the world processes through your mind and how you choose to perceive it. These converge to create your own personal, subjective, reality. Hence, your perceived reality may just be likened to someone else’s illusion of it. The way you see the world, could be considered an idealistic fantasy or even as a pessimistic wasteland, depending on who you ask.

    “The world ultimately is what we say it is.”
    ― David Friedrich Strauss

    In my 16 years of life, I’ve heard many people say the phrase “objective reality”. They speak so highly of this “objective reality” which is simply their subjective perception of reality that they attempt to force onto others. I’m no professional, but shoving ideals onto someone else always feels like a desperate attempt to have the one thing that the universe will never allow you to have: order.

    Human brains are wired to thrive off symmetry, and hence, our own subjective reality can be viewed as an objective one for the sake of a shred of this elusive order. This makes humans yearn to give others who do not share this perception, a glimpse of it; without realizing that reality as a concept, is an entirely abstract one. This results in the infamous “shoving your own beliefs down someone’s throat” syndrome™.

    Why is this subjectivity of humanity’s perception of reality such a big deal?

    Our perception and processing of the world around us shapes our beliefs, ideals and personality. Everything that makes one human entirely unique from the next is a difference of perception; albeit, it’s possible for one human to share perceptions, but of course, not entirely. In obvious fact, people tend to flock to those who share their views, feeling safe in a small bubble that only encourages their opinions even if another group would deem it a backwards way of thinking. Surrounding oneself in a bubble of common beliefs shuts out the rest of the views since there’s no way for those opinions to be challenged. This renders one close-minded to other thought processes and possibilities, resulting in many people physically unable to comprehend that it does or why another belief exists.

    This initial discourse in humanity is the epicentre of hate and fear in the world. A differing reality gives way to different ideals; ideals that some other’s may not understand. And by human nature, we fear and hate what we do not understand. We try to smother the embers of something new to let that we agree with, that which makes us feel more comfortable, burn on. Hence, killing the “threat” before it takes root.

    “Maybe just a case of one person’s ‘normal’ being another person’s Twilight Zone.”
    ― Angela N. Blount, Once Upon A Road Trip

    That one line by Poe has never really been more true than today. In this age of information where we see everything happening globally and are exposed to so many different world views, experiences and cultures, it’s essential to keep those words in mind. It’s truly a fascinating existence, to be connected to everything, but that also allows more avenues of hatred; mostly on, what I would deem, redundant grounds.

    It is imperative to remember that no matter how right you feel, someone will disagree with you. Someone will be different and have different beliefs; to put it into terms I’ve been using through this post: Your subjective reality would be seen as an illusion in theirs. It’s vital to try to understand different viewpoints without shoving your own agenda into it. Bear no hatred to a belief or ideal as long as said belief doesn’t hurt anyone, physically or emotionally.

    Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs. Learn to respect those beliefs, learn to understand those views, and even then, if you still wholeheartedly disagree with it: leave it alone. As long as it’s not hurting anybody, in which case, do what you feel is right.

Saye Kamal